Mars/Venus/Pluto?

A good friend the other day was saying I didn’t understand girls enough. Well that may be true, depending on how you see it, but I don’t think I am too poor in that respect either. I haven’t really rubbed anyone the wrong way and have generally been aboveboard and mature in the handling of issues. And it takes two hands to clap. So what if I understand girls better than I do now (assuming my level is meagre currently)? They have to try and understand me too! And it is not that I am not trying. (*NOTE: in the entire post "you" refers to a third person narrative!!) You learn something new every day, and I am always observing things around me. In fact, I think I care a lot for my friends and the people around me, but haven’t actually been getting much in return. No one really knows how much I do in others’ absence, and it’s not something I will voluntarily say anyway. Some things are pointless to be revealed, unless you are close enough to me, and ask in the correct manner. Like these things, so what if I told you I was that great and blah blah blah? If you knew me well enough, you’d already know I am that great. If you don’t, I won’t tell you either. I always believe the purity of heart will shine through, and still do. And who am I to ask for something more? If I get it, fine. If someone doesn’t want to place his trust in me, so be it. You may think I’m not worthy of it. That’s ok. But that’s your loss. I may be gentlemanly, but I am not going to pamper others like there’s no tomorrow. I’m not a yes-man. Obviously there will be differences of opinion, and if I didn’t have respect for you I’d not have bothered to think about it and reflect over an incident. But obviously if I don’t change my opinion it doesn’t mean I haven’t thought about it! If I don’t think something should be done in a certain way, I don’t. Well too bad if you don’t agree. It’s my choice, and I am going to take the decision myself. And of course everyone has his own way of looking at things, and so I am entitled to choose what I want to consider and what not to bother about. It’s not like I have to bother about everything, or to show I have thought about something. If you don’t think I have considered some aspects, or shown enough maturity, ask. And then when you debate with me you will find I am reasonable in my thoughts and conclusions. In fact, I rarely lose such a debate, but this isn’t relevant to my point here.

Maybe she was referring to that incident, but at that time I was actually very sure of myself. Just that someone else was of a different opinion and kept telling me it wasn’t right of me. Sometimes people’s perspectives of you and what they think you said, not what you think or think you said, matter more. And in the end I decided to err on the side of caution. But I will reiterate that I will always be sure of myself, and carry myself in that distinctive air. I should trust myself even more now. Especially if someone else who’s not close to me says something (ie which might be considered doubtful), I should really leave it at that. And we haven’t even talked about that incident yet!

Well she may think that I am still immature. She’s entitled to her opinion. I choose to focus on certain things. I say, it’s not in the years you have lived, or the intelligence you perceive yourself to be at. It’s the experiences and what you have seen, heard, read, done and thought. And believe.

Well we don’t actually know each other that well…